Dear Joseph and Lucia,
I’ve recently been going through a tough spot emotionally. Writing to you guys every day reminds me of how much I miss you. For years, professionals, friends, and family have recommended I do this, but I was always reluctant. Now I know why. It reminds me daily how much I miss you and how empty my life is without you. I have been considering stopping these letters… closing the door on my past and move on.
Last night, I was on the phone with my sponsor. He reads the letters. He told me they were a brilliant way to bypass the system and leave a digital trail for you to find one day. After his words of encouragement, I realized that I am your father. As a father, I will never stop loving you. I will do whatever it takes to continue to reach out. No matter the cost emotionally.
In the end, I’m not doing this for myself. I write these letters to you so you will know one day I never gave up on you. Be brave and search. I’m here… waiting.