Dear Joseph and Lucia,

I’ve recently been going through a tough spot emotionally.  Writing to you guys every day reminds me of how much I miss you. For years, professionals, friends, and family have recommended I do this, but I was always reluctant.  Now I know why.  It reminds me daily how much I miss you and how empty my life is without you. I have been considering stopping these letters… closing the door on my past and move on.

Last night, I was on the phone with my sponsor.  He reads the letters.  He told me they were a brilliant way to bypass the system and leave a digital trail for you to find one day.  After his words of encouragement, I realized that I am your father.  As a father, I will never stop loving you.  I will do whatever it takes to continue to reach out.  No matter the cost emotionally.

In the end, I’m not doing this for myself.  I write these letters to you so you will know one day I never gave up on you. Be brave and search.  I’m here… waiting.

Love,
Dad